I think I’ve really went apeshit only about three or four times in my life. It never ends well for me when it happens; I always assumed it was because I lacked courage, but it’s really because anger takes away my greatest asset: my brain. Still, I need advice. I don’t know if avoiding confrontation is always a healthy thing. This is the first time…
The truth is, I’m a very broken person. I’ve suspected it for some time, but the puzzle pieces come in dreams or in the quiet nights that I can’t sleep and the cracks on the ceiling read like tea leaves. There are clues. Why I’m so jumpy. Why I’m afraid of confrontation. Why I fear to be angry and would rather run away. I talked…
Last night I had a nightmare, one much like the others. I met an old friend at a fancy party, someone I hadn’t seen in decades. At first, he was happy to see me, but then as we caught up, he seemed less enthusiastic. I was friendly and joking like I usually am, but he could tell I tried too hard. As he learned I…
I hate being ghosted. I hate being swiped left. Modern dating works for cowardly people who see others as algorithms. For the rest of us, it’s playing a shitty game that’s unappealing. It isn’t about love, it’s about matching through availability. Such a turn-off; modern dating is telling me that the main thing some random person and I have in common is that we’re both…
No one I’ve met loves the movie American Hustle as much I do. If you ask most people what’s their favorite movie, they’ll often say films like Shawshank Redemption. Shawshank Redemption is about an innocent man who goes through unspeakable suffering to break free of the injustice done upon him. That’s relatable based on how people see themselves, as most people see themselves as victims….